Since the New Year, I think the gravity of the decision I made in June of 2014 is really starting to sink in.
It has been almost 5 months since I left my stable, well paying job to work on the Better Life Project full time.
It has been a whirlwind so far.
Today, for example, I was in my pyjamas all day. At 7pm I convinced myself that I needed some peanut butter so I went to the shops! But don’t get me wrong because was a good day! I wrote, I created an episode of BLP TV and I answered some emails.
At around 4pm I did, however, become very anxious at the thought of having no formal plans and then I realised that today was the perfect opportunity to relax.
I let myself switch off and I just sat on the couch watching an episode of my favourite Netflix Programme.
I think as a business owner, it’s sometimes hard to just switch off.
But as I am only starting I am conscious to create habits that will support me and not burn me out.
But I still have this gnawing feeling…
So what is it?
I quit my job and I have never been happier - the sparkle that I lost has come back.
That sparkle is my creativity and it is one of my most treasured assets. I love that my job is to create ways to help you using my ideas, words and thoughts. It is so freeing.
But this new freedom comes with a price.
I don’t always get it right.
I can get it so wrong.
I have literally scared clients away! I have gone days without emails or client appointments. I have had nothing in the bank account. I have created some not so great stuff. I have over priced and underpriced. I have spewed word vomit on my Facebook Page. I have worked when I should have played, and played when I should have worked.
I am failing my way to success.
But these failures are why I will succeed, so I am not frightened. Failure is a part of my growth and development.
In psychology it is called a growth mind-set. In a growth mindset, people believe that their most basic abilities can be developed through dedication and hard work—brains and talent are just the starting point.
I don’t avoid anything due to fear of failure and I am no longer worried about what people will think of me. I had to say goodbye to those insecurities when I handed in my notice. I commit 100% to everything and even if something is not perfect I know that it still needs to het out there. We don't have to be great to start, but we have to start to be great.
I bounce back after any set backs not because I feel like I have to in order to succeed, but because I want to so that I can fulfil my dreams.
I have, over the last few months worked with so many wonderful, passionate and talented women who have wanted to start their own business and follow their own dreams.
I have thought so much about you and how I can continue to help you reignite your sparkle and I hope that this little blog helps you in some way.
A good business plan, cash flow projections and services or products are vital – we all know that! But one thing that we overlook every single day is our self-belief, and how we need to nurture that also. We need to develop a growth mindset and embrace failure. We need to move forward and always remember why we started on this journey in the first place.
I started because of you… but I keep going because of me!
I know that might sound incredibly selfish but I don't know how else to put it. I know I will do something firkin awesome in my future that will change someones life. I won’t stop until i get there. I don’t think you should either.